After listening to the meditation I was refreshed, Debbie has a great voice and the meditation was fabulous. Listen to it with headphones on your laptop, the best! The meditation brought up questions of why you are self-sabotaging? And the great thing about meditations is your mind gets to go on hiatus, so you have the ability to actually receive the information freely without your thoughts about it. The messages that became obvious to me about why I am sabotaging myself, were… well, that if I actually became as potent as I truly be, then everything else in my life would go away. Meaning if I step into my greatness, lose the weight and get my business out into the world largely, then I life as I know it would change and life is finally in a good place for me. But is that what we want to be safe or to be bold and bring about great change. I truly do want to be extraordinary and be a part of the beginning of the new world cycle we are about to enter into. I thought the information coming to be was pretty relevant, because the first time I took an Access Consciousness Class, that is exactly what they told me. That I was this immense being that was trying to fit myself into a little bubble so that people could receive me and see me, it resonated. So how do I move into the being that I am supposed to be?

We’re asked to list what our 5 self-sabotaging traits were- and through this process came more self discovery. My traits were not doing things in moderation, I like to do everything big and to the full extent and when it came to doing things I don’t like… like cleaning my room (smiles), working on accounting, books, I tend to procrastinate until it comes right down to the wire. I always manage, but there seems to be some thrill or drive I’ve created to be under a deadline. I probably would be way more effective if I actually just did it when it was in front of me instead of waiting to the last minute. What an Acute awareness. So the next request by the lesson was to create a list of 5 things you would do, to counter the list of self-sabotaging traits. The first thing I did was clean my room. Ever go on a trip and unpack only the things you need? Then the suitcase stays there, unpacked for quite some time? Well, that’s me. So I went in there and cleaned it all up, put everything away and it felt great! Now can I keep it up? The next thing was I wanted to become conscious about having ‘present’ time with my husband. Anyone go through an entire day and not have moments with the people you live with? We talk and eat and tell each other things, but really have a moment where you connect? If you’re busy, you do just that. It’s important we give the things we love attention. Through this process and we’re only on lesson one, I’m already learning to be aware of my habits. Now I’m on day 3 and I can see how easily it is to fall back in that pattern, this will not come easy… it will require some due diligence on my part and yours if you are taking the challenge. Let’s not forget to love ourselves in the process and remember not to judge. We are here to make it right and the first step is being aware of what it is… that is not supporting us, but more often than not holding us back. I would love to hear from all of you your thoughts, feelings or input about ways we can support ourselves rather than sabotage… open up the dialogue!

Do it with love. Keep your list in a place where you can see it, so you’re reminded of what you told yourself you would do.

With love and blessings, Until the next lesson!
Alexandra